Hope everyone's having a good Easter weekend.
Tonight is the first Friday night in many weeks that I haven't been drunk!... Yeah, I'm on the wagon, and working on art. I'm very focused!
Still struggling with a few problems in my life, not sure what to really do about them. Maybe I should close doors; maybe I should just leave them open... No one's really knocking on them, so I don't know.
My heart is a very difficult subject, and those who really know and understand me have an understanding perhaps; others lack perspective. I had given up on my heart a long time ago, and then suddenly I was standing on a street corner and there it was in the hands of a very beautiful and ethereal young woman. And I knew from that very moment that I could never be good enough to ever hold her hand... but I try endlessly, regardless. The question I keep asking myself lately is what will happen when she finds someone that she really loves?... Can I really remain friends with her, being so in love with her?... But, above all things, I want her to be happy; that's what matters most to me.
All I can do is wait.
If any of you are drinking tonight, have one for me.